I thought I’d be a Pinterest mama, not Amazon Prime

Katy Pearson, Sonny Jim, whatkatydidUK

Better than any imaginings – me and my boy

IT’S a funny thing, but becoming a parent forces you to give up on childish ideas of who the adult you might be.

Since having Sonny Jim I’ve realised that being a journalist in New York – living a Sex and the City style life – isn’t actually for me.

Since becoming a mummy I’ve known for certain that I’m never going to just jump on a plane and lose myself on a beach somewhere, working in bars by night so I can sleep in the sunshine all day.

The ship has sailed for me to suddenly become the girl with the signature red lipstick and envious eyeliner flicks. With a picture perfect city apartment.

I’m never going to grow out of being clumsy.

I’ve never been more happy in myself, but this transition from the idea of the grown up you, to the reality of it, is easier for some than others. Though no one ever seems to talk about it – instead we all seem to muddle through in our own ways, in our own little worlds. Continue reading

I’m not sure I’m grown up enough for all this… #GE2017

Sonny Jim, Katy Pearson, #babiesatpollingstations, #ge2017

For your future: I’ve cast my vote, I hope it was the “right” one Sonny Jim

Do you ever do that thing when you look around for a grown up, and then realise you are the grown up?

So, then you find yourself looking for a more grown-upper grown up. Someone who actually knows what they’re doing and not just winging it almost every second of the day…

I’ve basically felt like this for most of my adult life. And even having a child – an actual little person that I’m responsible for keeping alive – hasn’t changed things.

I’ve been feeling even more like this in the last few weeks. With the terror attacks and the election, I feel quite a bit out of my depth on the whole adulting front. Continue reading